When did you first realize that you were a lesbian, and how did it come about?
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Re: When did you first know?
Tue, October 25, 2005 - 8:59 PMOh I knew when I was 6 and kissed my best friend that I was "diffrent" but I tried to be a girl for my mother the rest of my childhood and only recently have come out about it.
Course now I'm more of a Grrrl (always have been) and my daughter sweetly tells my partner constantly that "mommy's a dyke" much to my amusement and joy.
But I guess the answer to be short and simple would be I've always known, but weather I accepted it or not is a diffrent story.
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Wed, October 26, 2005 - 8:53 AMI should have known much earlier than I did. My mother had friends of all different ethnicities, sexual persuasions, etc. - in fact everyone was so accepted that these things weren't even discussed. So I never heard the good, the bad, or the ugly about such topics.
When I was in 5th grade, before I'd even kissed a boy, my best friend and I found a porno mag. Everytime I looked at a picture of a woman I found attractive I felt like I had to pee, but when I went to the bathroom, nothing would happen. Little did I know then, I was aroused - probably for the first time in my life. Not knowing what to make of it, and not making a bit of it, I simply forgot all about it.
Much later in life, my first love (a guy) called me on my flirting with a female friend and got me thinking about such behavior in a more adult manner.
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Fri, October 28, 2005 - 4:57 PMLynne- I know the "first pee" feeling that you're talking about! My first porno was only a few weeks ago, now I have a hope chest at the foot of my bed filled with different pornos and honestly they're so fun for me. sorry if that was vulgar! -
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Wed, November 2, 2005 - 7:00 AMVulgar? Heck no! Enjoy yourself!
Thanks for letting me know I'm not the only one...
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Thu, November 3, 2005 - 4:39 PMI didn't *know* until I was a sophomore in college, and after being one of those people who over-compensates by declaring how much I love penises every 10 minutes and always saying that I wished I were a lesbian but I don't like girls, a friend of mine made the suggestion that (oh no!) I actually was one. It was then, after a little reflection, that all the previous clues came rushing back... Hehe, kinda like that scene in But I'm a Cheerleader where she's like "I'm a homo!" But yeah, I remember that "first pee" deal too, and sneaking a look at my brother's porno stash, those girls in school I couldn't get enough of and couldn't for the life of me figure out why...trying to fantasize about sex with a man and always having it end up with a woman (perhaps that should've been a big clue...denial is an amazing thing, no?). But soon after my revelation, I noticed a girl in this club I was in, and I knew for sure the first time she kissed me... The rest is history!
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Sun, April 2, 2006 - 9:43 AMhello lovely lesbians! i've just joined and i'm feeling comfortable here already! :)
i, too, had the experience as a young six year old girl finding one of my dad's playboy mags and feeling so excited yet so bad and confused all at the same time (i was raised in a very traditional, catholic family). then, later in childhood, i would go to dance class and stare at my fellow female peers. and still later as an adolescent, i tried on the hetero-role to conform and ultimately deny my true self, and i found that i craved the company of my female friends and could care less about boys. and finally, when i came out in college, i was FREE and finally understood why i had been so miserable for a good handful of years with trying to be with boys. and now, as an adult woman, i am happy to say that being a lesbian brings me much pride and joy and to give ourselves the space to have a "lesbian-retrospective" is a wonderful, healthy thing. :)
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Sat, January 6, 2007 - 1:25 AMIt feels like forever..once you're out with it... but I guess first year
highschool it really became obvious like open sky all OOw and AAAh..
Still remember seeing her face through the crowd of other nubi's ...
call me nostalgic but as fuckin romanticly as I remember, I did hid away in the toilet
trying to recoil my thoughts and feelings... but I realized..wtf, im a human beeing..shes a human beeing, whats all this standardness I have to live up to.. I have to say, now I dont live at home anymore, it helped me a 200% to just be free in whatever I do, explore myself...
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Sat, January 6, 2007 - 6:10 PMI guess when I was like 15 I told my best friend at the time that I thought I was lesbian. Then i forgot about it, when i was 17 and still had never had a boy friend, I decided that I should and tried to be with a guy. What a horrifying experience! Basically I had ignored sex until then, never even masturbating and that turned me off even more, until I was 19 and remembered that, goddess girls are beautiful! I guess I just had wanted to be "normal" and sleeping with guys was neccesary to that, what a joke! Now when a guy gets my attention he must be utterly fucking special!!! And since that time I have realized that I am not strictly lesi, however there is truely only one guy that i have ever enjoyed being with. He, to this day, is a far away lover with whom i enjoy an intimate relationship with when we do have the chance to be close. But of course he thinks he is gay so the experience is truely about my enjoyment and not his own :D, if he gets off it is just a bonus.
So i got off topic a bit, but I guess I've "known" all along, but i didn't admit it until I was like 19. Now I just see people as being people and that people are brought into our lives for a reason and I choose not to limit those possibilities based on gender or anything really. -
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Sun, January 7, 2007 - 3:18 PMIt's good to know this tribe is still alive!!!--My first experience was kissing a girl in the second grade. Nothing after that..I knew I was drawn to women, but it didn't click. I went out with a few guys, and was in the middle of a 4-year relationship, when SHE walked into my life. It was that heart pounding thing that I couldn't deny. I was 19, getting ready to turn 32, and I still love her with every cell in my being. Interestingly, she lives in Australia, and I live in Virginia. I've been to see her two times...we've spent a total of about 10 weeks together physically. But we're working on that! I have been forever changed by the dynamic love of our relationship......oh yeah, I would have never met her if I hadn't been for my 4 year relationship with him!
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Mon, January 29, 2007 - 3:49 AMI should have known when my friends were all mooning over Bo and Luke Duke and I liked Daisy. At the time I thought I just prefered the Jeep Wrangler. I really didn't KNOW until a "friend" hit on me heavily. She worked so hard at not freaking me out. It did though until I stopped and realized that I had more feelings for her than I did for any man. I always wondered why these gals did stupid stuff for men, and here I was doing some of the same stuff for a woman. Hummm... :)
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Sat, March 10, 2007 - 11:07 AMwell, my mother had girlfriends growing up, so i thought everyone was bisexual. made perfect sence to me. so i never knew that i WASNT a lesbian really. my first expirience with a girl was when i was probably in seccond grade, playing licking and tickling games. i had a few female crushes but no girlfriend untill 9th grade. i keep dateing men however because in south dakota there are so few bisexual or lesbian women. and i am really afraid of women!!! because they are so beautiful and amazing!!! -
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Wed, April 25, 2007 - 11:37 PMHmmm...I only gave voice to being a Lesbian when I was around 18 or 19, as honestly that was the first time I heard the word "Lesbian" and a description of what it meant. Truly I new that I liked girls well before high school...I would see a certain girl and my insides would flip. So maybe about 12 or 13. A big laugh is that when I was 12 I saw a porno movie at a friend;s house and there were two girls in it. For a long time I though I was a "Porno Lady" !
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Thu, April 26, 2007 - 11:25 AMI always knew I was diffrent from other girls. They always liked watching the boys rugby game and I wanted to see the cheerleaders jump around. I didn't know what it ment until in college and I kissed my first girl on a dare. My family hit the roof when I came out but now after 11 years my mom accepts me and my siblings do also.....my pop has a problem with it and wish i'll find a nice man but he's coming along very very slowly. -
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Thu, April 26, 2007 - 12:07 PMI feel so lucky, I came out to my parents when I was 19 and they were like,"Oh, ok, so long as you are happy." We have lots of queer family friends and stuff, so it's pretty easy in my family. -
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Fri, August 3, 2007 - 9:50 AMI didn't know for sure until I was around 23-24 and I was not aware that I being a lesbian was even an option because no one really talked to me about it and I only hung out with gay men at that point. I guess I was kind of scared. When I was around 10 I had a lesbian encounter with another girl who asked to touch me "there" and I could not believe how much I felt, emotionally and physically. It blew my mind so much that I asked her to stop even tho I didn't want her to. Then I would always check out the girls in school and I felt guilty for being that way, like I was some kind of freak or pervert. I got into some fights with other girls because they thought I was staring at them to start a fight, not because I was thinking how cute they were...so I got beat up alot in high school. I would always masturbate from then on and think about women, girls at that time...but when I actually had a relationship when I was older it really came to me in such a unbelieveable way. That I could really be this way without guilt or secrecy. I stopped being in and went totally out, to my family, to everyone and I still am. I have been with men in between but the relationships were completely unsatisfying and I even would ask if I could be with another female....I ended up leaving my ex-husband for a woman...twice. That was when I ended it all with men and decided to stop trying to make everyone happy as a streight girl. I'm totally comfortable with it now and I am still out even though I live in a very small town who discrimates against gays or any people of color. I say fuck them...I'm happy
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